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[Redd]

So, this is like the venting topic. I guess. But organized venting. And a place to get help.

So guys I guess I'll start.

I have seizures but we've taken just about every test out there and each of them turn up with completely NORMAL results. This is especially weird, because I also suffer from Tourettes (since I was a small child) and A.D.D. (for like ever). How do you get NORMAL out of that?
So basically I'm kind of pissed off. I would rather be told that I have a week left to live than have no results. Because I know something is jacked up.
So I'm on meds for seizures and tourettes (Keppra), and it gives me a whole slew of side effects. I have severe mood swings, but get depressed more easily than I get bouncing-off-the-walls happy. I have anxiety/panic attacks, which I really don't completely know about and in fact I don't know if I'm actually having them or not, it just gets a bit hard to breathe and I start thinking of everything that could go wrong at that moment, like irrational things. Like, "what if a car came crashing through my house right now?" or "what if a plane flew into our school and killed everyone?" kind of stuff. I also get super euphoric feelings. I've become super touchy. I get feelings where it feels like electricity is running through me. Sadly it isn't, I've tried shocking things before and it doesn't work
I've also started to forget things really bad. My recently-made ex (before she broke up with me) had to remind me of our first kiss because I forgot it. There's a chick that's super mad at me right now because I can't remember something she told me to do, and she's REALLY ticked. Of course, being a girl, she won't tell me what's up. So whatever.
My girlfriend broke up with me a few weeks ago, claiming that we "need to see other people, but we can still be friends." Haven't seen her since. Who knows what happened there.
This girl that lived in my neighborhood like two years ago I saw again at Battle of the Bands, she was there supporting her high school and we got talking and stuff and she wanted to hang out with me really bad. But now she won't tell me jack squat and doesn't want to hang out anymore.
I'm thinking there was an embarrasing picture of me at the last Christmas party that got out or something... because girls are staying away from me for the most part. Except this one chick, totally random girl, today asked if I was going to prom, which I'm not, and then asked if I'd like to go, to which I replied "yeah it could be fun I guess," to which she stared at me for a while and walked away. Never seen her in my life.
Anyway, yeah, I'm pretty jacked up xD

How are y'all doing?

[Magical_RuNE_Kni...]

Did u do something bad at the X-mas party? Someone wouldve prolly told u something or u wouldve seen something online i think. o.o

They might b avoiding u just cuz u seem to b in a bad mood. Maybe uve been unconsciously acting depressed? U can try asking someone what vibe uve been giving off.

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im annoyed cuz this former friend excludes/ lies to me and implies im loud/ tiring... she then txts me 3 weeks later, "the food here sucks and if i dont get Wendys or something imma starve. Can u like bring me some before 8:30?"
Yea. Biiiitchhh..... Fucking no. >_>


... What i do want help w/ though is understanding my former crush. He was told we'd make a cute couple + i like him. He says, "But I'm gay".

My LGBTQ friends said it looked a lot like he liked me. I later even flirted back and he had no complaints/ reacted positively.

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He would say he'd protect me, joked that i was 'fcking beautiful', wanted to hold my hand, kissed me, randomly told me i had an amazing personality, kept trying to brush up on me, get close to me, hug me, txt back "hot <3"... Etc. Odd things like that.

... ._. I dont understand why he'd act like that and then dismiss it and say he's gay? It doesnt rly make sense to me. .-.

This post has been edited by Magical_RuNE_Knight2001: Mar 23 2013, 11:47 AM

[Redd]

Maybe he just randomly decided he wanted to be gay. One of my friends just randomly decided they wanted to be lesbian. WTF.
And yeah I'd be like AWWHH HELL NO.
And yeah I've kinda' been throwin' around an "I don't care" kind of attitude lately. But that's because, and this is gonna' sound really childish, but, THEY STARTED IT. Everyone kinda' made me feel that way.

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

Where was this topic a week ago!? :U

[Clord]

Where was this topic a week ago!? :U

Getting hired to do this?

[Redd]

Where was this topic a week ago!? :U

Under my bed.

[Magical_RuNE_Kni...]

Maybe he just randomly decided he wanted to be gay. One of my friends just randomly decided they wanted to be lesbian. WTF.
And yeah I'd be like AWWHH HELL NO.
And yeah I've kinda' been throwin' around an "I don't care" kind of attitude lately. But that's because, and this is gonna' sound really childish, but, THEY STARTED IT. Everyone kinda' made me feel that way.

haha, well i hope u did not like her. Xp She was prolly debating it for awhile though.
And the guy i liked had determined himself as gay for... at least a few years however. Hmhm.

Also, lol, i have to admit, ive actually been having the same attitude. So rebelllll.
At least u acknowledge it though. As cheap of a reason that it kinda might b. d:

[zacheatscrackers]

I've been convicted of sexual assault at least three times in the past month when I've done nothing of the sort. I'm STILL trying to fix that issue, but everyone is just too sensitive here. Apparently making a one-off harmless humorous comment about breasts is akin to rape here (especially when you're not trying to be remotely sexual about it!).

I've also gotten into several fights and almost got my iPod stolen; I also think my depression's coming back, since I've had to up my med dose in the past day or so.

I hate how life gets so hard sometimes. I'm well aware of the phrase "life's hard, get a helmet" but for god's sake, sometimes I feel that a crapload of needless problems just arise out of the blue so I get closer and closer to snapping each day. It's ridiculous.

This post has been edited by zacheatscrackers: Mar 27 2013, 03:26 AM

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

I've been convicted of sexual assault at least three times in the past month when I've done nothing of the sort. I'm STILL trying to fix that issue, but everyone is just too sensitive here. Apparently making a one-off harmless humorous comment about breasts is akin to rape here (especially when you're not trying to be remotely sexual about it!).

I've also gotten into several fights and almost got my iPod stolen; I also think my depression's coming back, since I've had to up my med dose in the past day or so.

I hate how life gets so hard sometimes. I'm well aware of the phrase "life's hard, get a helmet" but for god's sake, sometimes I feel that a crapload of needless problems just arise out of the blue so I get closer and closer to snapping each day. It's ridiculous.

Damn....I'd suggest moving away from wherever you are.

[zacheatscrackers]

Well, here's some irony; this place is BETTER than the state I used to live in, so I'd have to move for the umpteenth time to find a more peaceful place.

Things will get better eventually, I suppose, but for now I might as well just go with the flow.

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

You should move to NH, but I guess moving around a lot isn't so good.

[zacheatscrackers]

Mmhmm.

Well, thanks for the advice either way.

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

Well, I wish it was actual advice .w. I hope you can manage through the bullshit though.

[zacheatscrackers]

Heh, it still counts as actual advice even though I probably won't be able to follow it. Don't worry about it.

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

Alright x3 I see you are a writer

[zacheatscrackers]

Yes, I am. I do it when I have free time, which is alot, heh.

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

I'm currently working on a story for an RPG game with a buddy of mine. He seems to be available only during the night time, which sucks

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

I'm really going through some huge issues right now. I've just lost two amazing friends and now I may have to live life without them. It's hurting me really badly. I can't stop thinking about it. My mind is cursing me and my heart is aching to be ripped out. I fear I am starting to lose my mind....I just want them back in my life, but I fear that may never happen

[Magical_RuNE_Kni...]

I'm really going through some huge issues right now. I've just lost two amazing friends and now I may have to live life without them. It's hurting me really badly. I can't stop thinking about it. My mind is cursing me and my heart is aching to be ripped out. I fear I am starting to lose my mind....I just want them back in my life, but I fear that may never happen

Oh god, wow, thats awful. : ( im sorry to hear that, it must b really hard.
Do u mean... U got in a disagreement? Hopefully its that. U still have a shot of resolving whatever happened if it is that.

@Zack: haha, what did u say? o.0 about boobs i mean.
Also, ikr... I think im getting a bit of my depression back too. i dont even know y rly. |:/
I think its from my teacher calling though.. + my parents work a lot, + friend drama, + drama w/ this guy..

[UmbrotheUmbreon]

I'm really going through some huge issues right now. I've just lost two amazing friends and now I may have to live life without them. It's hurting me really badly. I can't stop thinking about it. My mind is cursing me and my heart is aching to be ripped out. I fear I am starting to lose my mind....I just want them back in my life, but I fear that may never happen

Oh god, wow, thats awful. : ( im sorry to hear that, it must b really hard.
Do u mean... U got in a disagreement? Hopefully its that. U still have a shot of resolving whatever happened if it is that.

The first friend was just really bad argument, really bad. It was worse than any we've had yet but.....I didn't want her to remove me =/ I know I sounded like I wanted her gone but I didn't, I was just really heated and angry The second one didn't wanna get involved but I couldn't accept that (which I usually do) and said "fuck you" to her, when she's been there for me many times. I feel really bad and they both have completely blocked me away....It hurts but I'm trying to deal with it and accept the consequences. I just wish it could be fixed.